Radiational Barriers

I couldn't call this a writer's block,
Because I already know of where I'm starting at.
The question is, "Where will I be when I stop?"
Can I afford to think past the extent?
Now if I do this, my mind's gotta be set.
Too many times have I thrown my thoughts in the trash.
Feeling dumb, but no longer shall I just let
lazyness come and cover me up in a mask.
I have a dream, better yet I have a vision.
It won't come to past without the hardships.
Now it's best to say that I'm on a mission,
and something has to manafest from it regardless.
It could be nothing because I'm always relazing
Or, the next step because I went about my business.
But which road have I stayed in contact with?
How can I use it to examinate my wishes?

I've clichéd the phrase that faith is dead without any work.
Soam I non-existant from being idle?
In other words, do I live a life without any worth
because I don't do the work that I subscribe to?
That would mean the broken bondages wait out until birth.
A man holding to nothing for survival.
My apathetical ways contribute to my own girth,
which means my own mentality is my rival.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not the crazy one here.
It's just a war that I fight, we all tend to face them.
But then again, when your dreams pop-up then disappear
then it's insanity when you choose not to create them.
What did I do all this time, I can't seem to recall.
And yet another opportunity just passes me by.
But no more need I let these slip pass me and fall.
They only rise in accordance with the way that I try.